The Gift

I am learning that perhaps the greatest gift to mankind is desperation. The good kind of desperation ( yes, there is the dark and ugly kind) the one that makes you reassess your life plans, your business relations and the friends that you surround yourself with. I have cradled this kind of desperation that softly begs for attention and nags at your soul and if you don't feed it with positivity, passion and love it may just cripple you.

In life there comes a time when you need to acknowledge your level of desperation, be it for great health, wealth, or friends and family that value loyalty. Be desperate to be the change your life needs.

ONE DAY. ONE STEP

My Birthday month coming up and for the first time in my life I just want to relax and reflect on my life so far; the choices i have made, the people i have let into my space, the relationships i have built and most importantly the life lessons that life has beaten into memory. I really wish someone had warned me about being an adult and having responsibilities and that no one will chase after you to eat breakfast, or change your career or pick your social friends wisely. I always thought it was all easy until I woke up smack in the thick of life and I was faced with so many daunting decisions that threatened to swallow me whole. 

The fear of the unknown is the one thing crippling us from achieving our life goals, but for me it has always been the fear of success, what then would be the next step? I dedicate my birthday month to thinking of my next step in life, my next project, my next move. I love the skin I am in right now. I am one with the thoughts that swarm my mind in this very moment. I know what needs to be done next. And if i fail and falter, I will rise yet another day and conquer. 

Plans and Projects of 2016

 'It is only after you have chased after things without names and ran from demons with familiar faces that you appreciate the true value and abundance life has to offer. One day in the entirety of your lifetime, to make a change, to pursue only what makes your heart sing, to not fear the unknown, to create something with a name, to revel in every second of the day, to just be.'

A toast: to swallow life one bite at a time, to chase after what loves me, to not worry about what people will say and finally to embrace and learn from failure.

THE HAPPINESS PROJECT

 I have been to the deepest darkest corners of the world, I have fought faceless demons that threatened to strip me of my soul, but I'm here today ready to tell my story. Ia m ready to begin the healing process, welcome to my #HappinessProject


"Tell your story until the broken pieces begin to heal
Tell your story until you can muster the will power to wake up and survive until sunset
Tell your story until you don't have to bandage your scars
in a shameful attempt to soothe your shredded ego
Tell your story and shout it out to the rest of the world
Tell your story until you can taste sounds and find solace in writing poetry
Tell your story until the scars begin to heal"

~~~~ Maipelo M Zambane

The Transformation

I wrote this on the 19th of December 2015. I was going through a very rough patch in my life but I managed to pull through by writing daily positive affirmations and working tirelessly on achieving my dreams. 2016 is my year of achievements! 

Every worry 

Every frustration and anger 

Every fear 

Every tear 

I embrace as a learning curve

I appreciate such emotions for in the end they don't make me weak but thy make me a victor 

I carry my own burdens for I know that only I have control 

I have a choice between wallowing in self pity or rejoicing in my renewed strength and every waking day I will choose to rejoice 

I will celebrate my health and my family 

My friends that keep me sane and my God that never fails me 

Today I will rejoice for my spirit is finally free of worry and worldly burdens 

Today I flip over a new chapter 

My Art

Here is a little something I wrote to mark the journey of coming out of my shell and finally sharing and submitting my work. 2016 is the year of many wonders. 

My art is discovering itself 

Slowly rising from the ashes of nothingness 

My art roars with the fever of a creature that yearns to be heard 

Caressed with youthful abandon 

My art is strong like our foremothers who fought silent wars behind closed doors

My art is born to stand out 

And yet the spirit of perfection is keeping me from launching 

The constant what if's and what then?

What if I am not good enough, what will people say, what if they don't like it, worse yet, what if they do like it and I my well of creativity dries up 

On some days that is why my art prefers to stay hidden. 

And yet on some great days my art threatens to burst out of the shell I carefully crafted 

It yearns to be caressed by a thousand golden kisses and celebrated eternally 

It yearns to be mounted on the walls of galleries for the world to see 

It yearn to be sung and praised by men and women alike 

It yearns to be studied and dissected by students in crowded corridors 

My Art lives within my soul

Nurtured and nourished from infancy 

I feed my art with words and pictures and feelings unsaid 

Greatness is my destiny 

Art is my life

Everyday is a chance to learn, grow and express 

My art on paper

 still

 shy to come out and spray the masses with her potency 

My art is my voice scribbled on paper yet whispered to my peers 

My art is my art and one day I can't wait for you guys to hear me roar 

Goodbye 2015, hello 2016

Life lessons of 2015

Well this past year was one of many lessons that I shall carry with me to 2016.  The aim is to learn more. Read more. Write more. Explore more. Basically live my life but quadruple the fun. 

1. Forgive only after you have learnt the lesson and only then can you entirely heal 

2. Caucus with like minded positive spirited people who invest time and energy into your dreams 

3. Appreciate the power of your networks and always stay in touch 

4. Learn to leverage your relationships 

5. Invest in your personal development, be spiritually enriched, fill your soul with love and light and expand your mind with meaningful literature 

6. Friendships will come and go choose the people that still stick around with you in your darkness 

7. Be humble all the time. 

8. Prayer works wonders 

9. Practice the masterful craft of self discipline. Sacrifice and forfit the elegant life pleasures for the rewarding and eternal life goals. In other words build something your future offspring will thank you for 

10. Family. First. All the time. "you don't give up on family even when they do"