Chasing Dreams

What happened to the big eyed little girl who believed in the power of her dreams.
Suckling on her thumb and sharing her dreams of the future with anyone who would listen
"A doctor-Dj you say?"  And they would erupt into mocking laughter

But that wasn't the only dream the little girl had. She wanted to write, save lives, drive fast cars, and entertain people for a living. I loved that little girl.  She never stopped dreaming dreams bigger than reality.
It took me a while to reconnect with that little girl. I'm consumed by the fire to succeed.  To get all my plans off the ground. To just know that I'm enough. To break out of the shell that I have buried myself and my dreams in. It's time to revive and liberate  my dreams.

Surviving Life

Often we face challenges in life that cripple us and strip us of our humanity. We cease to show affection and close up our hearts to love.  It seems impossible to share our experiences, for how could anyone understand the hurt, pain, anger and anxiety you carry everyday.

It's a daily battle and the aim is take life one salty bite at a time.  Learn from your mistakes and come out stronger and more focused.

Never in my life have I wanted to succeed this badly. I have been through a lot for someone my age and I'm don't sitting and mopping around. No more pity parties. No more talking and not doing. I had a soul reviving epiphany and it's time I broke out of my  shelf and activated my greatness.

Be careful of my heart

' Be careful of the people that take from you even when they see you have nothing
be wary of someone who promises kisses, loyalty and sunflowers 
but only delivers specks of fairy dust and colourful bullshit. 

Be careful of people that don't listen to your heart breaking 
the way your smiles wane when they will you once again to do something for them 
when was the last time they asked, friend, what can I do for you? 

Be wary of people that will witness your suffering and only offer 'aww shem' as a cushion to your plight 
surely you dont need the company of such people in your life
these are the bad fruits your mother warned you about' 

21/07/2016

A year of Firsts

The second half to 2016 is certainly primed to be the year of firsts

The first time I decided to liberate my voice and record a jingle

The first time I set up my profile and accepted my awesomeness

The first time I stopped apologizing for my demons and became a victor

The first time I stopped worrying about other people’s opinions

And just shined,

I learnt to stop apologizing for my awesomeness

(and I learnt that I love using the word awesome a bit too much)

The first time I admitted my problems to myself

And sought ways of solving them

The first time I liberated my writing and wrote articles for blogs

The first time I stepped up and accepted duty as part of an organizing committee

The first time I set up a literacy program that would give back to the community

I just needed to trust in my faith, my talents

 and pray for God to unravel all his plans for me

I’m ready to receive the abundant blessings he has in store for me

I am ready to conquer the world

One day at a time

One dream at a time

 one prayer at a time .

 

The start of greatness 

The Gift

I am learning that perhaps the greatest gift to mankind is desperation. The good kind of desperation ( yes, there is the dark and ugly kind) the one that makes you reassess your life plans, your business relations and the friends that you surround yourself with. I have cradled this kind of desperation that softly begs for attention and nags at your soul and if you don't feed it with positivity, passion and love it may just cripple you.

In life there comes a time when you need to acknowledge your level of desperation, be it for great health, wealth, or friends and family that value loyalty. Be desperate to be the change your life needs.

ONE DAY. ONE STEP

My Birthday month coming up and for the first time in my life I just want to relax and reflect on my life so far; the choices i have made, the people i have let into my space, the relationships i have built and most importantly the life lessons that life has beaten into memory. I really wish someone had warned me about being an adult and having responsibilities and that no one will chase after you to eat breakfast, or change your career or pick your social friends wisely. I always thought it was all easy until I woke up smack in the thick of life and I was faced with so many daunting decisions that threatened to swallow me whole. 

The fear of the unknown is the one thing crippling us from achieving our life goals, but for me it has always been the fear of success, what then would be the next step? I dedicate my birthday month to thinking of my next step in life, my next project, my next move. I love the skin I am in right now. I am one with the thoughts that swarm my mind in this very moment. I know what needs to be done next. And if i fail and falter, I will rise yet another day and conquer. 

Plans and Projects of 2016

 'It is only after you have chased after things without names and ran from demons with familiar faces that you appreciate the true value and abundance life has to offer. One day in the entirety of your lifetime, to make a change, to pursue only what makes your heart sing, to not fear the unknown, to create something with a name, to revel in every second of the day, to just be.'

A toast: to swallow life one bite at a time, to chase after what loves me, to not worry about what people will say and finally to embrace and learn from failure.